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Chelsea Rae

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I need A Title by cudlpnk, literature

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I need A Title

Your fingers reach my neck And i feel like screaming the words just dont come out You keep squeezing You fiercley climb on top And i feel like dying I can't say anything My words just won't come out With all your cares, go my dignity With all your tendernece goes my pride With every forceful move in my direction You take a little bit more of my life I'm dying as you do this Your little trip of ecstacy Is a nightmare for me I slip in and out Nothing lasts except the pain throughout my body I feel the filth slipping into me I scratch and claw at myself Your still going when i stop Breathing.

This one is for you. by cudlpnk, literature

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This one is for you.

I close my eyes... Whisper goodbye And the tears begin to stream I drift away to long gone days Of you bein here by me I can hardly remember what i said to you that day caught up in everything else I let our time slip away I know i'll have another chance to say everything i feel but your my best friend and darling loosing you forever seems so real... just so possible. Like everyone thats gone before I needed them, of that i am sure but nothing can compare to the gift you gave to me the gift of my own life, the gift that set me free Im sitting here remembering nothing but that i love you so and i need you here with me,

Pool And Hearbreak by cudlpnk, literature

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Pool And Hearbreak

Smokey residue builds fast Upon my clothes and in my hair Smell lingering after I walk out the door Clouds of smoke block my vision And you can't see my tears Tables filled with beers & Jack Daniels Drunken stupor reigning over you Balls clang and fall in all directions Cigarette ashes light my dwindling path out Leaving that place as a disaster Head still held high with pride Heart is crumbling on the inside Your eyes flickering with fire Catch up fast and pull me aside I hear your yelling, but your words become a blur Fist goes flying with your rage You almost hit my face And then I duck away…

Artifacts of Friendship by cudlpnk, literature

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Artifacts of Friendship

Rubbing a few worn wooden beads Tied loosely round my wrists Words spell out PTW And i begin to wonder... How did it come to mean so much? From an inside joke to serious importance? A little something to be carried a long way Fingers trace all their features Picture of a memory held captive Withstanding all the rules of time Symbolic of one special night When we were all together For the very last time Paper fold so much its become like cloth Ink begans to fade off But the words i will always remember Inscripted in her perfect way " I Love you like a sister" All these small memories I look back on causually All of them g

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Failing To Notice by cudlpnk, literature

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Failing To Notice

Eyes blinded by the pain, Words pushed back by the fear. Legs bound by her past. She knows of nothing she can do, of no way to escape it all. She cuts but it won\'t do. Its jsut a grieving tool. Darkness fills her life, leaves her with no way out Hurting tortures her soul, it has no remorse. hatred stabs at her like knives from every damn direction\' That which once was beauty is now destryed. Old friends are enemies, attacking every moment N one is left, and she fails to notice As here life passess her by. She tries with all her might, yet she cannot see, The beauty and strength that lies beneath. Her life is a mess and she f

Longing for Him by cudlpnk, literature

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Longing for Him

With Empty arms and untouched lips, I long for him. Waiting for some one to take my breath away, and captivate my soul. Longing for the Love of another, Rips me up inside. Tears fall down my cheeks, as i wonder, Will he ever be? Does this man exist? I long for his tender touch, that makes me feel safe. I tremble as i think, he may never come. I call out his name, there is no reply. I long for the day, when he will come to me, and the two of us will be. I watch for his shadow on my bedroom wall. I reach for his hand, in my empty bed. I listen for his words, as i pick up the phone. And then i realize, i am the only one home. I

No Fathers Daughter by cudlpnk, literature

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No Fathers Daughter

His memories have been withheld, His presence, never existed. He is merley just a partner in my creation, A foundation, a rock he is not. \"daddy i love you\" has never flowed from my lips. A Trusting hand has never held mine, A father has never said \"goodnight\" I know nothing of a loving father, I know nothing of a safe man\'s presence in my house. I know nothing of being daddy\'s princess. I know nothing of him at all. There is no such thing as a replacement. This longing, this want can never be filled. I will never fully grasp his slipping away. I will never understand why he didn\'t stay. Today i saw my father, I saw him

Stooopid Poem by cudlpnk, literature

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Stooopid Poem

You cross my mind, Every Now and then. You touch my heart, Every once in a while. And While your with me, I happen to realize, I wanna be more than this I wanna be more than I am I wanna be more than Just a memory pushed to the back I wanna be more than jsut a fragamnt of your past, left in your heart. I wanna be a part of everything And know that you\'ll always love me I wanna have you to hold, to love you to cherish I wanna have you. I want you to have me. I want more for me and you. I always wanna have you and me. Slipping away, doesnt work for me. Pushing you, its jsut hurting me. I cant let go, but i think i am. I see

let you Die by cudlpnk, literature

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let you Die

Standing on edge, I hear you scream my name. Your hand reaches up, I watch your body hang. In my head i invision you falling down. In my heart I feel a shooting pain. My hand is stalling, I want you to play my game. I want you to know, I want you to feelExactly the way i do , every day. I let your body slip, I ignore your cry. Until finally I see, you are afraid to die Finally I see, It all though your eyes. My hand reaches out, trembling with fear and guilt Your fingers grab mind, I start to pull you up. is our bond enough this time? I step back, I dont pull you up. I let you go. Your body falls,and then you break. i

Unbelievable Reflection by cudlpnk, literature

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Unbelievable Reflection

a smile shown from my reflection I wipe the mirror. I cant believe. I check my eyes, yet a smile i still see. I dont understand how it can be. I havent seen myself smile, In forever and a day. I havent ever felt my heart warm, never before in this way deep down maybe its real. Happiness might\'ve finalyl come my way. Light is shining in this dark tunnel. brightening my days and yet i wont let myself see it. i wont believe its true. Ive waited for this a long time. And now its here and im confused I dont know how to be happy. i dont understand how not to hurt Anger fills up insidee me. Frustration rages within.

letter For a friend by cudlpnk, literature

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letter For a friend

i saw you today, you brougt a smile to my face, i laughed with you today, you took away the pain. i cried with you today. it made me feel okay ... sat with you today , it made me feel safe i talked to you today, it made me feel free. I thought about you today , Suddenly I realized Today i got so busy, i didnt tell you how i feel, I cherish you, i trust you, i care for you, i need you, im here for you, you make my days brighter,and i love sharing them with you but most of all, if i died tommorrow , ild want you to know ...good friend...that with all my heart, I LOVE YOU!!

Life Kills Boy by cudlpnk, literature

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Life Kills Boy

Vast spirals of blood Lie around him On the floor where his body lay. Silent for forever, He\'ll never see another day. The silence has been broken, The words he could never say, Shown engraved upon is arms and legs. he thought no one would listen, He felt no one would care. When no one came to save him, He knew they were never truely there. Now their fake tears mean nothing. This boy could\'ve been saved, Unsolved Problems and frustrations carried him to his grave. Young and hopeless, Lifeless creature, he left his life, for so many reasons. Pain abandonment ...No trust. Forever he will feel worthless, Forever haunted

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Liocer by RenagadeBlue16, literature

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Liocer

Liocer My thoughts are now furnished; my mind is now made; it's time to continue, this life escapade. For all that you've shown me, you now hold me back, teaching and keeping me slightly off track, till I can't see the stars, or the sky of the sun, and see only one thing with you as the one. Time won't heal all these wounds cut by you. I'll just deal then, and walk the rain through. For all your rejections now have just set me free, and soon you'll be wishing you'd not lost out on me.

Rain Dance by stg1985, literature

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Rain Dance

Take a hit and lay on down, (see the birds, and the bees, and the flowers and the trees) Your back's been broken far too long. (You've bent too far) Take a hit, and clear the frown, (take a hit from the bong, get a smile from a song) In this land where you're never wrong. Riding on this rollercoaster, Coasting towards a brighter day. Here's the magic that we'll show her, Purging her from the darkest pains. Young girl, you better take care. Cause I'm swinging from a branch, By a rope, in the air. C'mon, destroy all your pain. Cause we're running round naked, Dancing in the rain. Take a swig, let it fill the void. (Take a drin

Life and Fire by Daiichi, literature

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Life and Fire

Wait! Don't go! Do you know? Every day, By waking you make an impact? In your eyes there is always a fire in ev'ry movement there is life. So when you can't reach what you desire don't let that fire drown in your own tears Just breathe, Oxygen fuels a fire, time helps it grow, thrive, trust the strength given to you by nature. Pain is the Universal truth shared by all. Nature's divine plan, regeneration, life from ashes, beauty from scars. Sun and moon rise and fall, showing ever-changing feelings are normal. Predator and prey showing death gives life. Life should always carry a balance, you must always look to the smil

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I Guess This Is Growing Up by cudlpnk, literature

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I Guess This Is Growing Up

No more climbing trees, Done with acting out silly dreams I forgotten how to have a fantasy So bogged down by everything I can barely remember how to laugh Good times seem to be only in my past Enjoying warm summer nights, underneath the sky Has slipt away to be, a memory I forgot what it is to believe That In reaching for the stars,i can suceed I've lost that innocence, once in my eyes I got lost in terror and lies I don't even know if I am who I am Such a crazy world, I moved on so fast Everyone says they are having fun I feel like Im missing something, maybe its love? Maybe its time, that i never had But Hey, I guess this

I Guess This Is Growing Up

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United States
Deviant for 21 years
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Current Residence: South City. [love]
Favourite genre of music: I'm too random
MP3 player of choice: Ipod.
Favourite cartoon character: Nibbler. (I just love that little thing!)
Personal Quote: Aw, crap

Favourite Visual Artist

Duh, Me. or Chagal

Favourite Movies

land before time

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Murder by Death

Favourite Games

Hide N seek

Tools of the Trade

Anything i can get my hands on

Other Interests

reading and old movies. records. doodling and laughter

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cudlpnk

Nov 13, 2005

Jeepers! Oh my!

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Boys && Girls! How have you all been?! Wonderful i hope! Life has just been so crazy [[ but in many wonderful ways]] I look forward to catching up with all of your deviations, my inbox is overflowing! I've been super busy with school, and applying to colleges. Eeek! Lots of Love and Best Wishes, -Chels

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cudlpnk

Jul 17, 2005

If you believe they put A Man on the Moon

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Reading:The Grapes of Wrath/Catch-22 Listening To: R.E.M- Man on The Moon / Edwin McCain- I'll  Be./ Goldfinger- Superman Currently:Sick Watching:Pete's Dragon. <3 Just to clear up any misconceptions; I AM NOT A WHORE. ~ I will not flash you, or make out with you in my friend's bathroom. I am almost flattered you asked. I don't know what i want to do tomorrow, much less 10 years from now. So... don't ask me to marry you. Don't pick out our wedding song. Don't ask me what i want to name my children. And don't ask me where i'm going to college. Some things i do know; I need a good Cuddle. The Peace Corp is definatley a goal of

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cudlpnk

Jul 2, 2005

Every Cloud has a Silver Lining

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Elizabeth City, North Carolina: Small. Hot. Homey. Amazing. I am loving my vacation except: I am terribly sun burned ( fever, too!) Away from all my friends. Dying for a good cuddle fest Since none of my friends are here, i have been spending a lot of time with my younger brother alex ( who will be 14 in October)Its crazy how much i have learned about him and from him. I played a major role in his....growing up?. and yet i still really didnt know him as anything but my little brother. We were on the way back from a movie today, and i got a good luck at the person he really is. Ive finally come to realize that there are things in my

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ChristofLehmann

Apr 7, 2008

Hello.
Hope you are fine and thank you for many pleasant moments with your productions.

Please be so kind to read my yournal entry.

Today, the first year day after the death of my fiance, Jay René, I am tarting a foundation to help socioeconomically underprivileged girls, who are forced into prostitution and drugs to pay their tuition.

I would apreciate ANY kind of supportt. Moral (as I miss her dearly) , support with spreading the word, participation inbuilding the foundation, advise, ANY support really.

Thank you ever so much and hopefully I will have many good moments with your work that I watch and apreciate.

Christof Lehmann
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pamelaski

Mar 4, 2006

Hello darling, how've you been?

RenagadeBlue16

Nov 6, 2005

Thanks for the favorite and the comment!
You've made my night entirely.

Have a wonderful night yourself!
~Dan

Mr-Squidge

Aug 22, 2005

Chelsea Rae!

How's it going?

mehumo

Jul 18, 2005

You were flattering the hell out of me until it said send this to 10 people.

I have like 3 friends on deviantArt.

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Jul 15, 2005

Think about this...
You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.
*PLEASE READ THIS WHOLE POST IT'S SO DAMN TRUE*
1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great. add this as a comment to ten of ur friends tonight and at midnight your true love will find you. Something good will happen to you at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Whoever breaks this chain letter will be cursed with 10 relationship problems for the next ten years..."

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Jul 11, 2005

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